i envy your freedom. i envy your thirst. i envy how you are able. i envy the fact that you have a direction to take, and that you've tread it successfully. i envy your choices. i envy how you speak your mind. i envy the ray of sun in your art. i envy the shadow it casts. i envy the colors and the way they are put together. i envy your courage. i envy your fears. i envy your love and passion. i envy your triumphs. i envy your downfalls. i envy your youth. i envy every inch of you. you may not know it, but i wish your life were mine. not this unfamiliar abyss that is eating me from the inside. i love you, though you do not know me. but i envy that you do not have to be me.

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